it's that time of year again...

...time to make resolutions which will always be in the back of our minds, but end up being things we'll never get to. my policy: the more u make, the better the chances of achieving one. let's start w/ the easy ones:

1) get in shape. my body's gone to h*ll. i treat it like cr @ p, and the sad part is i know it and i feel it. i'm done w/ the chest pains, i'm done w/ the shoulder issues, the headaches, etc. must be better to my body.

2) get my act together academically/work wise. wth am i doing? i have no direction. I need to decided where i'm going and how i'm going to get there. my whole life has been fooling around until I hit the point of no return where decisions are no longer mine to be made but rather a result of lack of time. time is now the enemy - the longer i go w/o making decisions, the more i waste. need a compass to life - something to make me feel like there's a purpose.

and...

3) improve my social habits. this is perhaps one of the hardest resolutions to keep. i'm tired of making excuses for not keeping in touch w/ ppl. i'm always taking the easy way out - one day turns to two, turns to a month, etc. i feel like i'm writing the same thing i wrote a year ago, so enough. i guess my fear is letting people in. the closer u let someone get to u, the more vulnerable u get. though inevitable, i don't want to feel pain. no one does. i only want happiness. when sh*t hits the fan, i always take the easy way out by ignoring issues and pretending to move on. no more. i have to be willing to take it. no pain, no gain... right? it hurts like h*ll and nobody knows...

well, my mind's shot. it's getting late...

happy new year. here's to a better year.