another year...

"And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again"

- Goo Goo Dolls, Better Days

Here's my resolution...

...i'm letting go... haha - nick lachey reference. pathetic - this is what my life has become.

so as i sit around waiting for my two-faced ex-senior twit to finish w/ her lover, let's reflect. as a new year approaches, i realized that i never really ever made a serious resolution. i always joked around, said stuff, but never followed through. well, this year i have but one resolution that i really need to follow through w/:

This year I will treat people the way they should be treated.

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continued on the 29th as follows:

so i got cut off yesterday, but yes, the new year is rapidly approaching. this year has had its fair share of ups and downs and go arounds, but the same goes for any year. looking back, i feel like i've been pretty bad. i hafta start being more of a mirror - be nice to ppl who are nice to me, and don't be so nice to ppl who are not nice to me. I can't be walked all over n e more and I can't walk all over other ppl n e more.

Life isn't fair. we all know that. as much as I like to believe that eventually good deads will be repaid, it's not true. The problem is: too many of us have come to realize that, and instead of correcting the problem, we fall victim to the belief that if other ppl can treat us unfairly, then we have the right to do that too. I beg to differ- hence, the resolution. What goes around comes around. Karma has given me a few swift kicks in the@$$, and it had every right to. but, no more. i'm going to learn to appreciate the people who are actually out there and care.

here's to another year...

NYE08!!!

so yesterday night was an exciting night. after an adventurous dinner, yesterday night was when i decided that since our lives had hit a brand new low regarding new year's eve, next year will be different.

with the help of a buddy who shall remain anonymous, we have planned the greatest new year's eve bash ever. yup, this is the announcement of the big NYE08. this, of course, will not be happening on long island, but rather my fabulous NYC penthouse w/ a giant projection screen to watch the ball drop. the invitation process is highly selective (i don't do large groups) - we are already starting to consider the potential guest list, so if you're interested please let me know. For those of you not on the list, there will a limited number of openings on folding chairs available for $5 - $10. Tables will not be available, but you should definitely reserve the chairs. Currently on debate is whether to offer a beverage w/ a folding-chair reservation. Party hats will be provided by "buddy" and we're leaning towards sushi for eats, among other junk food of course. w/ the massive amounts of space i have - i will sympathize with those exiled to long island and give them first pickins for sleep areas.

this post will be continuously edited. please feel free to make any suggestions...though i might not take them into consideration.

Yawn...

I am exhausted. I don't know what my problem is. I can't keep my eyes open.

the most excitement i had today was watching a dumb girl fall into a puddle b/c she was too preoccupied with her starbucks coffee. some little girl - she's probably one of those obnoxious too-cool-for-my-age people. lessons of the day: 1) if you get starbucks, sit down and drink it; 2) don't walk near large puddles, especially in nyc - who knows what's swimming in them. 3) act your age - don't be a dakota fanning in training...i kinda laughed, so that's really gonna push me further away from heaven. now i'm just waiting til i get shoved into a puddle - karma really sux.

actually, i shouldn't lie - the most exciting thing ever to happen to me today is the acquisition of a tape dispenser. i dunno, though, it's a close competition b/w the glue stick and the tape. i think the tape wins though. i won't even discuss the highlighter - i kno you can handle only so much excitement at once. yes. this is what my life has become.

i need to change my life. i can't just sit around and watch the sun rise and set everyday. I feel like life's going nowhere. u close ur eyes for a sec and a lifetime has flown by. Something needs to happen with my life - i'm scared that i'm falling into the trap of work-no-life... ugh. u kno there's something wrong when gone are the days you actually didn't mind going to work and (dare i say it?) i actually enjoyed work at one point. things are only going to get worse too b/c i just sit around and complain, but i don't take any action. i don't even know what i would do though to change things. i'm not comfortable with this life n e more. i was though. i was perfectly satisfied with my situation, but now with each day passing, i feel like i'm just wasting away. it's not depression or regret, just disappointment. i use to have fun. pure fun. now it's like fun is just a joke that i make in passing for like 2 seconds, then it's back to nothingness. err. i've never been an advocate of change, but right now i think i'm pretty darn desperate.

"...where did i go wrong, i lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness,
and i would have stayed up with you all night, had i known how to save a
life..." - The Fray

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

the day we wait all year for... well, at least the day i wait all year for, has arrived. can't write much, but I must say, today's the day i forget about everything else - live for the moment. today is Christmas. go out an enjoy it b/c it comes but once a year...

i don't care how tired you are of Christmas music:

"...let's join together, we can watch the snow fall forever and ever, eat, drink and be merry, come along with me...take care in all you do next year and keep smiling through the days - if we can help to entertain you, oh we will find the ways. so merry Christmas one and all, there's no place I'd rather be than asking you if you'd oblige stepping into Christmas with me..." - Elton John

"...i feel like runnin' wild as eaches and a little child... let's deck the halls with holly, sing sweet silent night...go to sleep and wake up just before daylight...that's what Christmas means to me..." - Stevie Wonder

Are inflatables acceptable?

I guess the question reallty is: are they tacky? Personally, I think they're pretty awesome. But that's just my opinion. Everything within reason though - like if I had a really small front lawn upon which the inflatable would be overflowing, then obviously it's not meant for me to have one. C'mon, are they not cute? I feel like a lot of people have lost their christmas spirit. myself included. As we get older, we seem to forget the pleasure we had running down the stairs christmas morning to open our gifts. These days it seems like we just struggle to get in that extra few minutes of sleep on Christmas day. I drive up and down the blocks of my neighborhood and see darkness during the holiday season. The most you see is a wreath, maybe a string of lights, a white wooden raindeer... where has the holiday spirit gone? do we really out grow Christmas? i hope not. christmas music is the only thing that seems to keep the spirit up, but these days, all you hear are complaints about how the radio plays christmas music so early - even going as far as to start before thanksgiving. God forbid... jeez.

come on people. i'm not the most positive and optimistic person in the world, but gosh darnit, show some holiday cheer. We've got years full of stress and other problems, why can't we just take this time of the year and make it the best darn time? i'll admit, maybe the inflatables are a little too much - overcompensation for the lack of spirit in the air. but, hey, i'm trying, and so should you, cuz if we're not happy now, then when will we ever be?

tonight's the eve of Christmas, and whatever you're doing - try to be happy. Accept your circumstances and appreciate the people around you. Christmas comes but once a year. it's not about the presents, it's not about the decorations, it's about the time you are given - so make the most of it. Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.

i only lied about being a thief...

merry early christmas: it's here... (if you don't see anything below, then go to Ocean's 13)

I really hope this doesn't turn out to be a disappointment. Ocean's 11 was perhaps one of my all time favorites - maybe I'm oblivious or something, but it seemed like everytime I watched it, I'd find something new. Hence, the building up for Ocean's 12. Result: slight disappointment. I'm not gonna let my hopes get too high about this one, but still, it's worth a post...